Awestruck
In our college bible study that meets on Sunday mornings we are currently going through a series called ‘Awestruck’. This study focuses on passages in the book of Psalms and allows us to dive deeper into what the author, David, wrote. This week we looked at Psalm 139, most usually quoted by any friend or parent when you are feeling down about yourself.
Person #1: “I have no self-confidence…”
Person #2: “If you’ll turn to Psalm 139 with me…”
Person #1: “Who am I?!”
Person #2: “Funny you should ask, I was just reading in Psalm 139 this morning…”
Person #1: “What verses should I use at the baby dedication?”
Person #2: “Psalm 139, duh”
I have read Psalm 139 many times in my life. I have read it when I’m sad, when I’ve felt lost, and even during times of praise. Psalm 139 is one of those passages that we hear over and over again, and if we let it, it begins to lose its meaning. I’ve done it before, read through scriptures by myself or in a group setting and not spent time reflecting on the power of those words. This Sunday though while our college group discussed these verses I saw something new for the first time. The Lord knows me. He knows when I sit, what I will say, when I rest; He follows me everywhere I go. The Lord created me. He formed who I am. He created the color of my eyes, the sound of my voice, each unique fingerprint, my laugh, and my personality. He knows absolutely everything about me. I cannot hide any little detail from him.
So I began to think about my life currently. I have, over the past two months, struggled with something that has gotten progressively harder to deal with. I have prayed, sought the Lord, talked with friends, and tried to deal with hurt that was not going away. A few nights ago I was driving by myself and shouted at the Lord, “I cannot do this! I cannot handle this anymore!” over and over again. So on this day, when I read Psalm 139, the Lord said this to me: “You can handle this because I know you. I created you. I’ve watched everything that has happened in your life. I know what you can handle. And I know that right now, what you’re going through is meant to refine your character. This hurt is meant for you to see me just a little clearer. This is something you have to learn to prepare you for what is to come. But most importantly, I know who I Am, and I’ve got this.”
What truths has the Lord shown you from His word lately?
